Ahhh... and then she rested.

The past two days of rest have been good for me. I'm still challenged to get in and out of chairs without pain, but at least I'm not falling into chairs anymore. And I'm loving the feeling in my legs... they are getting so strong. I can feel the muscles work and flex as I take steps, go up stairs, move my body... that feels incredible even though tinged with pain.

Actually feeling my muscles work is amazing, but I can see them working, too!! I caught myself in the mirror at spin Friday night and could actually see my quads working! I guess that means one of two things has happened: I've finally lost enough fat off my legs that you can start to see the muscle or my muscles have grown enough that they are pushing through the fat. Or could it be that both things have happened? Be still my heart.

Eating enough is still hard... I don't actually know what "enough" is... Ellen said that if I'm still hungry I should eat more. But I'm not always hungry when I think I should be. And when I'm hungry, it hasn't been taking much food to stop the hunger. I'm eating a lot more protein and a cracker/cookie/bread/noodle hasn't touched my lips since last Wednesday. And I haven't had any chocolate or processed sweets, either. That's a first ever. Me not eating chocolate is a clear indication that something major has shifted. Every time I think about eating something that I think I want, like chocolate, muffins, and ice cream, I remember how much pain I was in last week and how long it has taken to recover. I just think "it's not worth it". What I want more than a piece of chocolate are legs that won't quit!

I'm excited to get back to the studio for more spin tomorrow... still worried that I won't be 100% ready for Wednesday with Ellen, but I'll bring my whole heart to it no matter what.